i keep reading that sentence over and over. everything is so blatantly obscure. i keep telling myself that i'm misconstruing it all. but you said it. no fancy footwork, just those simple words i keep fumbling over. wondering over. dreaming over. and i keep getting these wild flowering festers of uncontrollable visions. ...but i know i could just be misconstruing it all. my veil is falling. it's gotten much too heavy for my bones to sustain. rendering me vexed, powerlessly, in a swallowing state of disguised desires.