staring into an empty screen. cursor blinking monotonously. like my heart. i have no fury and am surprisingly not saddened, either. it's reached the point where only laughter seems applicable. and i'm content with that. it's nice not to feel. to be truly numb. scrumptiously void. i hope to stay this way for a while. i really do. it's much easier to carry on with necessary mundane functioning in this setting of human existence, if i do say so myself.